I am worthy to be my authentic self.
I am worthy of my own beliefs.
I realized that I am still concerned about the opinions that others
- friends & family who already have an idea of who I am -
have about me.
Because they know me as a reflection of their own beliefs.
Most of us were raised in the shadow of our elders.
We adopted their beliefs and we strive to be accepted and approved of based on how well we mold to their belief systems.
However... that which I just described is conditional love.
Which leads me to believe that my true fear is that if I'm honest with my new personal beliefs, that I already know are disagreed with, that I won't be loved.
That right there is really effed up.
I am unconditionally loved.
My choices and decisions and actions may not be loved but my self is loved.
I am love.
Love is always here and I can’t be separated from it regardless of my choices or opinions or beliefs or actions.
We are individuals.
I just have to find a way to accept others' disapproval.
To accept that I am not how others see me.
My happiness is my own responsibility.
If others can't be happy for my happiness because they feel I'm doing the wrong thing because it's different from what they're doing..
Well.. I guess that's their problem now isn't it?
I believe in happiness.
Real. True. Unconditional happiness.
I know it exists.
I am living it more and more everyday and it's getting better and better.
More days are focused on laughter and love and joy.
I am appreciating life for all it has to offer.
I understand that when things come that I don't want I can automatically understand what it is that I do want... and go for more of that.
This is a lifelong journey.
Change will occur, which is why my happiness must be unconditional.
Happy in spite of.
I have the power and I am using it.
I want him to thrive into his adulthood. He will have his questions I'm sure but I know that if he can watch me be my authentic self and be happy that he will accept himself as well-that is my hope for him.
I want to reach my end and still be smiling...
Knowing that I was true to myself.
Knowing that I embraced this life that was given to me.
That I laughed and celebrated as much as I could.
That I lived my happily ever after.
Because everything is always working out for me.
I am the creator of my own reality
because this existence is my own and I only get one shot.
So I'm taking it.
It's not my responsibility to be who others think I am.
But it is my responsibility to be my authentic self and not give any fiddlesticks about who likes it.
And if any of you can relate I hope that you can also find a way to do the same.
Because there is only one you just as there is only one me.. and we should rock it to the highest potential.
I love you all we are beautiful!!